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Totally met Dr. Phil and Robin McGraw today. I'm gonna be talking about it for 14,233 years. And I will never let you forget it. They wouldn't take posed pictures with anyone so I dont have one of me and him. Bummer. If you dont believe me, then you are a faggot, cause IT TOTALLY DID!!!! Me and my mom got there at 7:30 and we brought lawn chairs and dr. phil books to read. ha. it wasnt that cold. I also brought tetris and got 163 lines. Ihate myself. okay I'm being boring. seeya. :: +Memory :: Tell a Friend :: 4 replies :: Reply
I feel bad. About my family. I don't spend enough time with them. My parents are very "parental." I don't give them enough credit. They say and do the stuff the parents are supposed to do. I act like a brat. I don't respect them most of the time. They do alot for me. They have my best interest at heart. Really they love me and want be to a well-adjusted human bean. I may not have a "Lorelai and Rory" sort of a relationship with my mother. But thats just the thing. She's my mother. And that's TV. I wanna hang with my dad. He's been working so much, his schedule is so up-and-down. He gets home late at night. And doesn't wake up until like 8:30. So I don't see him in the morning. It kinda sucks. He's always been my bud. The brother and sister thing is cool. My sister is getting so big. Grown up. Kindergarten. We are close. We love each other. Thats it. I love to watch the person she's turning into. She's amazing. My brother is one of my best friends. I tell him a lot of stuff. He gets me. We can hang out together and have a good time. He makes me laugh. I enjoy his company. I think he enjoys mine as well. My friends are as follows. They are the people in my life who I never get tired of seeing. They make my days special and original. Without them I'm not sure how much I would like myself. They mean everything and it was fate that they all came into my life and stole my heart.♥ I think that about takes care of that. And finally. For my last relationship talk for the night. God. Jesus. My faith in its entireity. I haven't been close to god for a few years now. Especially with going to Junior High. I find it really hard to pray. When I try to, I start asking for things. Then I feel guilty about how I always ask for things and then I'm never really thankful for what I have. It's like a huge circle. I remember when I was younger my faith was very important to me. I liked going to church and was proud of the relationship I had with god. It's hard to explain, but when I walked around I just had this feeling that something bigger then anything you could imagine, was in my heart. I wish I had that now. I can't go to church group because it's kinda not what I want it to be like. They play games and dance and other stuff that I see has no point in faith. I wish I just had a talking group. Jzone is just kinda like a gimic. People are afraid to talk about god. It's a fact. Plain and simple. They are afraid of being scrutinized and judged. I feel that. If I wanna talk about god, then I wanna talk about god. I don't need to play games and watch movies and cut pictures out of magazines. All I wanna do is talk. And I can't do that at Jzone. My brother is deeply rooted in his faith. That's one of the reasons I admire him. All I want is to feel the way I've felt in the past. I feel incomplete. If anyone just wants to talk about god without judgement or lame games, Then I'll be willing to listen. I won't call you a hypocrite. I won't think that you are being unreal or fake. All I wanna do is talk about where my life is going in the holy sense. Jeeze I have a lot of thoughts in my head tonight. I'm sorry this was soo long. It's the way it goes. I'm done Good Night. OH! P.S.. If I've ever called you out about being fake or a "non believer" in Christ. I'm truly sorry. I have no reason to point that out in oneself. When all these years I had been just lying to myself.
1st-Gym[April and Joey.] yay. they are cool. 2nd-Science[Nick and David.] They both sit by me. Awesome! 3rd-Spanish!!!![Lauren, Timmy, and Felicia] Felicia sits right across from me. Plus this is my favorite class. LUNCH. With tons of people. And everyone finally has enough seats. Which makes me less pissy and a drag to be around. 4th-Math [Nick,David,Jeremy,Shane,Shanna,Nate] I sit by Nick and Shane. Plus Mrs. Campbell is nice. 5th-Social Studies [Nick and Blake} I sit by Nick once again. I hope we dont get sick of each other. 6th-English[Shane, Chad and Hannah.] Sit by Shane. Hvidsten is kinda annoying. Thats it. See a little of evryone. Gretchen started a notebook. So we can keep in touch with the girls. YAY! I gotta go to bed. Go CRIMSON
[I hope!] NO! Actually I know!!  GOODBYE SUMMER '06!
Gretchen- I'm sorry I got on your nerves today. I was being a terd. Thank you for telling me to settle down. You keep me in check. I don't know what I would do without you. Thanks. I can't wait for school and next Friday.  I'm not a wuss for posting this LJ. WE really are tight.♥
From laughing. I heard it makes you live longer. I hope so.  ♥ I have nothing to say. My day is good. I need to go shop for school clothes. With my dad. He will buy my love♥ 
on the beauty of life. Its a good day. I love life. A lot. 
Happy Birthday Adam. |
