waaaaaa?!?!??

"how's that working for you?" -dr. phil mcgraw

2006-09-23T16:29:05Z

Last nite I was helping at kara's birthday. Little girls are fun, but I never wanna be one again. then I went to gretchens with jeremy and I guess. I've never really hung out with jeremy in a small group. He's pretty cool. I guess.
Totally met Dr. Phil and Robin McGraw today. I'm gonna be talking about it for 14,233 years. And I will never let you forget it. They wouldn't take posed pictures with anyone so I dont have one of me and him. Bummer. If you dont believe me, then you are a faggot, cause IT TOTALLY DID!!!! Me and my mom got there at 7:30 and we brought lawn chairs and dr. phil books to read. ha. it wasnt that cold. I also brought tetris and got 163 lines. Ihate myself. okay I'm being boring. seeya.

So here's the thing...

2006-09-11T03:27:30Z

Lately I've been thinking about relationships. Specifically the relationships I posess. The relationships with my family. My friends. God. And the "deeper" relationships you have with only one other person. I can't imagine myself in a relationship that contains a person who becomes your everything. I wouldn't put myself in a situation where I would be vulnerable. And open to being hurt. I've seen these relationships. Both when they are good and wonderful. And also when they are bad and heartbreaking. I can't put myself into a spot like that. Because more then likely they wont turn out the way we hope they will. What does that make me?? Scared. For the fact that someone might hurt me. Break me down. I think that's it. I love my independence. My self suffiency. I like taking care of myself. I'm not sure I can handle taking care of another person. Not in a friendship sort of way, but something more then that. Or does that make me stubborn? And vain. I just stated that I like taking care of only myself. I think its that too. I can be vain and self centered. But really. I have my whole life to find my mate. My partner. Is it really necessary to start off in junior high?? Right now my life revolves around when the new season of gilmore girls starts, and what plans I have for the weekend. Pretty chill. Nothing serious. I don't know if I'm being a hypocrite. I could be. This is how I feel. Basically it boils down to, I'm not ready for a boyfreind-girlfriend thing. I couldn't do it. It's not right. I'm young and this is the time in your life where we really don't have responsibilities. I just don't know.

I feel bad. About my family. I don't spend enough time with them. My parents are very "parental." I don't give them enough credit. They say and do the stuff the parents are supposed to do. I act like a brat. I don't respect them most of the time. They do alot for me. They have my best interest at heart. Really they love me and want be to a well-adjusted human bean. I may not have a "Lorelai and Rory" sort of a relationship with my mother. But thats just the thing. She's my mother. And that's TV. I wanna hang with my dad. He's been working so much, his schedule is so up-and-down. He gets home late at night. And doesn't wake up until like 8:30. So I don't see him in the morning. It kinda sucks. He's always been my bud. The brother and sister thing is cool. My sister is getting so big. Grown up. Kindergarten. We are close. We love each other. Thats it. I love to watch the person she's turning into. She's amazing. My brother is one of my best friends. I tell him a lot of stuff. He gets me. We can hang out together and have a good time. He makes me laugh. I enjoy his company. I think he enjoys mine as well.

My friends are as follows. They are the people in my life who I never get tired of seeing. They make my days special and original. Without them I'm not sure how much I would like myself. They mean everything and it was fate that they all came into my life and stole my heart.♥ I think that about takes care of that.

And finally. For my last relationship talk for the night. God. Jesus. My faith in its entireity. I haven't been close to god for a few years now. Especially with going to Junior High. I find it really hard to pray. When I try to, I start asking for things. Then I feel guilty about how I always ask for things and then I'm never really thankful for what I have. It's like a huge circle. I remember when I was younger my faith was very important to me. I liked going to church and was proud of the relationship I had with god. It's hard to explain, but when I walked around I just had this feeling that something bigger then anything you could imagine, was in my heart. I wish I had that now. I can't go to church group because it's kinda not what I want it to be like. They play games and dance and other stuff that I see has no point in faith. I wish I just had a talking group. Jzone is just kinda like a gimic. People are afraid to talk about god. It's a fact. Plain and simple. They are afraid of being scrutinized and judged. I feel that. If I wanna talk about god, then I wanna talk about god. I don't need to play games and watch movies and cut pictures out of magazines. All I wanna do is talk. And I can't do that at Jzone. My brother is deeply rooted in his faith. That's one of the reasons I admire him. All I want is to feel the way I've felt in the past. I feel incomplete. If anyone just wants to talk about god without judgement or lame games, Then I'll be willing to listen. I won't call you a hypocrite. I won't think that you are being unreal or fake. All I wanna do is talk about where my life is going in the holy sense. Jeeze I have a lot of thoughts in my head tonight. I'm sorry this was soo long. It's the way it goes. I'm done Good Night.
OH! P.S.. If I've ever called you out about being fake or a "non believer" in Christ. I'm truly sorry. I have no reason to point that out in oneself. When all these years I had been just lying to myself.

Fresh-what?

2006-09-08T02:54:00Z

Okay. I like school. I didnt on Tues. but now I really do. Quick schedule and some highlights then im off to bed.
1st-Gym[April and Joey.] yay. they are cool.
2nd-Science[Nick and David.] They both sit by me. Awesome!
3rd-Spanish!!!![Lauren, Timmy, and Felicia] Felicia sits right across from me. Plus this is my favorite class.
LUNCH. With tons of people. And everyone finally has enough seats. Which makes me less pissy and a drag to be around.
4th-Math [Nick,David,Jeremy,Shane,Shanna,Nate] I sit by Nick and Shane. Plus Mrs. Campbell is nice.
5th-Social Studies [Nick and Blake} I sit by Nick once again. I hope we dont get sick of each other.
6th-English[Shane, Chad and Hannah.] Sit by Shane. Hvidsten is kinda annoying.

Thats it. See a little of evryone. Gretchen started a notebook. So we can keep in touch with the girls. YAY! I gotta go to bed.

Go CRIMSON

Take me home OJH!

2006-09-05T03:13:53Z

Is it weird to say that this has been the summer of my life??? I had the greatest time ever for the past 3 months. Its just like a huge vacation where all you do is stay at home and hang out with your best friends. Quickly I'll fill you in on the highlights of my summer....The first week was kinda weird. I went to North Dakota and hung out with my grandma. It was wonderful. She is my angel. I loved it. But while I was there I had this feeling going on that just was kinda sad. And it really made me realize that I can be vulnerable. And my feelings can be hurt. I can be bitter and angry. It's not like what happened effected my life entirely. I would even go as far as saying it was not even a bump in the road. It was no big deal. I was over it pretty quickly. I don't even know why I'm even saying this. I had a blast making over boat for maple grove days. Gretchen and Tommy were awesome. I couldn't have asked for a better team. I hope that it will become a tradition every summer. Probably one of my favorite memories in my life. [[[OMG that is the corniest thing I've ever heard!!]]] My bike was stolen, then returned. Thanks Mama! I became closer to people that I never had a great relationship before. A good friend moved away. My favorite store became Goodwill. I've come to find that I am so incredibly blessed for the friends I have. They make me the person I wanna be. I actually read some books. I got in a major fight that broke me down. My brother became my "person I admire most." I played tennis once. I made many, many miles on my bike. Going somewhere almost everyday. Kickball was the greatest today. It was fun to play it with a big group of people. I'm excited to go back to school. I have the feeling that it will be a great year. I finally consider myself a freshman. I will have great classes and meet a lot of good people!!
[I hope!] NO! Actually I know!!

GOODBYE SUMMER '06!

erndogg @ 2006-09-03T23:05:00

2006-09-04T04:14:40Z

I'm excited for school. Gretchen's parties are gonna be cool.

But hey, whats new???

I hate livejournal.

♥

After the times we've had, I wouldn't trade them for anything.

2006-08-31T03:46:17Z

Today me and GRetchen got into a little scuffle. And I thought that she was being unreasonable and I got upset. I didn't understand what my problem was. She didn't do anything hurtful or mean. I was having an off day. I think its pretty forward when someone just says to your face that they are sick of you. But really I think its a good thing. It keeps me balanced. And on the"straight and narrow."Its important when she says stuff like that. She's the person I'm most honest with. I can tell her anything. She is anything but unemotional or someone you can't take seriously. It tells me to calm down. Gretchen and I have hung out a lot this summer. probably the person I've spent the most time with. I've gotten soo close to her. We are really alike. She makes me happy.

Gretchen- I'm sorry I got on your nerves today. I was being a terd. Thank you for telling me to settle down. You keep me in check. I don't know what I would do without you. Thanks.

I can't wait for school and next Friday.

I'm not a wuss for posting this LJ. WE really are tight.♥

Life isn't fair, if you happen to be Kelsey.

2006-08-25T06:15:13Z

My appendix is going to burst.
From laughing.
I heard it makes you live longer.

I hope so.

♥

I'd rather have small pores than have salmonella, GRETCHEN!

2006-08-24T04:43:10Z

I AM GOING TO TAKE SLEEPING PILLS AT 10:30 AT NIGHT SO I WILL GO TO SLEEP FASTER!

I have nothing to say. My day is good. I need to go shop for school clothes. With my dad.
He will buy my love♥

I'm the lucky one, FAITH.

2006-08-22T04:10:36Z

Dwell
on
the
beauty
of
life.

Its a good day.

I love life. A lot.

erndogg @ 2006-08-19T00:07:00

2006-08-19T05:11:46Z

Sometimes when I'm feeling nastalgic and appreciative, I play this mind game. I imagine that one of my closest friend has died an I need to speak at their funeral, "what would I say??". Now of course I don't want any of my friends to die. Its a positive game where I think of the things that made them such a wonderful person. Please dont get creeped out or scared. Chances are if you are reading this I may have thought of you while I was doing this. And I focused on all the beautiful qualities of yourselves.

Happy Birthday Adam.

erndogg @ 2006-08-16T22:32:00

2006-08-17T03:49:23Z

I miss Leilani.
I wish she wasn't moving.
I wish she would go into 9th grade with us.
I wish she would have english with me again.
I wish she could laugh at me when she does a card trick that's incredibly simple but I'm still baffled by it.
I wish we could have more time to make memories.
I wish she was here longer this summer.
I wish I could call her black and we would laugh about it together.
I wish we could've been closer.

I hope she has a lot of friends in Utah.
I hope she enjoys living with her dad.
I hope she emails,myspace,livejournal even handwirtes for gawd sakes!
I hope I will too.
I hope someday I'll see her again.
I hope she doesn't forget us.
I hope she'll miss us too.

I dont care if I sound like a sap. I will miss her. She was really great. Today when I came home I watched full house and Michelle's best friend Teddy moved away. And she was sad.

Life lessons can really be learned from a TV show starring Bob Fagot. Good to know.

erndogg @ 2006-08-15T23:35:00

2006-08-16T04:40:47Z

I threw a party tonite for Leilani. I was a spaz. I'm never throwing a party again. I got soo stressed out. It was no one's fault. It's hard to explain.
My mom was like, "Erin you cant keep walking into the kitchen with your dirty feet."
So I was like, "But people want water and there isn't any out there." THen she told me one of the neighbors called to tell her we were too loud. She said that she didn't think we were being loud, but she told me to quiet them down for the neighbors. So then I just got worried. and bossy. and a loser. I had fun. But I'm tired. Thanks for coming to anyone who reads this. I'm glad I did it. But next time I'm getting a keg, so when I take a few drinks I'll losen up.

Good NITE!

Who knew there were no mosquitos down south??

2006-08-14T06:28:37Z

I'm gonna write in my livejournal again. Not a lot. But once every couple of days.

Went camping with gretchen over the weekend. Had a lotta fun. I'm really glad I went. WE went to three caves. All like 48 degrees. It was chilly. WE took a lotta pictures. Most for myspace. Cause we are pathetic. The first cave we went to we had a really cute tour guide. It was enjoyable. The other caves had park rangers who gave out A LOT of info about rocks and formations. It was cool anyway. WE took an amish tour. This old man named Russel came into gretchen's car and he told us where to drive. Now I am pretty good in most situations with strangers. But this guy was aukward. Really nice, dont get me wrong, but it was just kinda weird. Anyway we stopped at some amish shops. They make a lot of baskets, quilts, rugs, candles, decorative crafts, etc. Gretchen bought a coffee candle and it smelled good. I dont even like coffee smells. But the Amish know what they are doing with the candle making. I bought some cookies and a doughnut at the amish bakery. They were good. I like the amish. I respect them for living the way they do. I think its cool.\

Okay so enough about that. WE had this crazy raccoon in our campsite. He wasn't as crazy as much as he was calm and kinda cute. WE fed him hash, beans, marshmallows, and some other leftovers. The first night we saw him me and gretchen were playing LIFE at the picnic table and she just jumps up and screams
"AHHH. I just saw a fricken raccoon!"
I thought she was kidding and I was like you are soo full of crap. But she was right.Totally a raccoon. WE had a lotta laughs with that.

GRetchen got SO GOOD at building campfires. No joke. She could have an inferno in like 2 minutes flat. I was really surprised. She was an awesome camper. The showers were pretty nice for being camping showers. I was impressed. One of my favorite parts of the whole trip was the land. It was so pretty. Really big hills. Lots of green crops all around us. Really tall corn. I loved seeing all the old farms and barns. With the cows and horses out in the field. I absoluetly loved it. I know Gretchen thought I was a doofus, but it was so pretty. It made me think of my Grandma's farm and when I'm gonna take Jessica up there next summer. I owe her a trip.

The spam museum was really cool. I got a kick outta all the cool stuff there. Found out I can pack spam in can with labels faster then Gretchen. Now that's an acomplishment. I also read two books and three magazines during the trip. YAY!

I had such a fun time. Makes me sad that summer's almost over and we'll go back to school. I wish it could be summer all year. Whatever. I'm nuts.
I gotta get ready for my party. Wish Leilani would make an appearance. But she's gone MIA. Gawd Dang! I miss her.
♥♥♥

these thoughts in my head are clouding my judgement.

2006-07-01T03:10:40Z

okay so I've been busy again. like it says in the title there are just so many thoughts and ideas going on inside my mind I need to sit down here for a while and just write them down. okay so I'll list them now. so last nite I went to jessica's for a sleepover with lauren and kelsey. but I'm telling you because I had a revolution. a revolution about me being mean to people. especially boys in general. jessica's neighbor was out and last nite for no real good reason, I just like VERBALLY kicked the crap outta him. he didn't do anything and all I did was say mean things and make horrible jokes at him. I don't know why. it didn't bother me at the time. and lauren and kelsey INSIST that I didn't do anything wrong and that I wasn't being cruel. But I felt like I was. I didn't realize it until we got back but I'm extremely mean to boys.
am I bitter?
am I intimidated??
like what the hell is my problem. I'm not mean to girls at all. like if I meet a new person that's a girl I'm actually descent and normal-like. but if I meet a new guy I tend just to me a jackass and say stuff that I shouldn't. this problem really bothers me. like its been bugging me all day. and I'm thinking of how to deal with it. basically I just need to stop being the loud mouth and just chill. cause I don't wanna make people feel bad about themselves.

okay so anyway enough of that topic. jessica's was funn. had pizza.
watched spice world. I wasn't really into it but it was funn watching everyone else sing along with it.
went to the park.
played soccer and drew with chalk.
talked and talked and talked and talked.
it was a pleasent time.

got a haircut today. it's soo much shorter. not really, im being paranoid, but it justs feels a lot shorter. I definetly needed it. my mom says that she thinks it looks like kelsey's. especially when its up in a pony tail. I brought lauren with me. the whole time david[my gay hairstylist who has hands of gold] was cutting my hair we were talking and when he was finished lauren goes
"its so weird that you talk with your hairstylist, all I say is yeah I got to OJH and stuff." it may not sound funny with how I typed it but it was at the time. then we went to DQ and got ice cream. twas good.

I've seen lauren every single day this week. it's been funn chillaxin' with her. hope she isn't sick of me. because im not of her. she's pretty chill. once when I spent the whole day with gretchen she told me "erin I don't think I got sick of you today". it was funny. because I can see how people can just get sick of certain others once you've seen them for days and days on end.

after we got back, I took a nap. then I went back to lauren's house
[yeah, I know I have OCD with lauren]
but ethan and tommy came over. yay. I like those boys. I don't think I'm too mean to them because we've been friends for a long time. so it was good. we talked about MG days and I found out that ethan's going to tennessee for 10 days. he's sooo NOT psyched about it. I wish he didn't have to leave because he's a cool punk. but he'll just have to miss a whoopin' time.

gretchen and claire get home tomorrow. which is gnarley because claire is leaving to florida in a couple weeks and I wanna make sure that we hang out a lot before she goes. she's soo funny.

We're going to wisconsin over the 4th. just my parents and sister. My brother has to work. That bums me out cause I like to hang with adam. and now he can't go to the brewers game with my dad and I. So my mom and sister have to go. ugh. they don't wanna go because NEITHER ONE LIKES BASEBALL. so that kinda puts a dent in things. but we're going to the dells. that should be a kick. and the best part is that we'll only be gone for a few 2 days. so I won't really miss anything crazy funn.

now im done. peace.

THat 44ouncer just sits in you like a log.

2006-06-25T22:41:29Z

ugh. its hott and sticky in my house. just got back from gretchens. we went to SA. she bought me a 44oz. freezey. and im still full and sickish feeling. we watched treausre hunters. it was funny. the geniuses are dumbasses. over-thinking, anal bastards. im gonna watch treasure hunters every monday now. gretchen just has that effect on me. was supposed to o on a walk with hannah today. she didn't call me back. eh...whatever. gonna go eat. only wrote because someone told me I never write anything, and now I just did. hopefully I blow your mind later on with inspirational journaling.
kbye

At least they didn't waste any Charmin. It was all generic.

2006-06-21T14:07:26Z

AHAHA.

We totally got teepeed last night. My dad was SUPER pissed and called the police. The po-po got 20 kids out here this morning by 8:30. They forked us too. That's crappy cause I had my window opened last night and I didn't hear anything. Most of the kids here didn't actually do it, but they are helping cleaning it up. My dad's face has two shades this morning.
Ultra ANGRY and Kinda Humorous.

LETS GO TO THE LAKE TODAY GIRLIES!

I wanna watch the notebook. and eat cake. And sob and sob and sob.

2006-06-21T05:01:50Z

I right. I really wanna watch the notebook. Jessica gave me the actual novel today. And by 10:30 I was done reading it. I loved it. I'm glad I read it. Some parts were different from the movie but it was still enjoyable.

My day goes like this...Babysat my sister this morning. had to wake up early to watch a mary-kate and ashley movie. I was crabby. until the twins started singing. then I laughed because there's nothing funnier than two tween girls lip-synching to really cheesy songs about solving crimes. then we watched another movie...."the black cauldron??" I think. she let me sleep during it so im not sure. jess biked over at one. then my mom came home. jessica gave me a bracelet she had made[green and white for UND] and a john deere tractor model. getting random gifts blows my mind. I enjoyed it even though she didn't have to give me anything. we watched boy meets world. the ones when corey and topanga come back from their honeymoon and have no place to stay. because corey's dad won't let them live in his house. so they moved into a really crappy apartment. it was good. I laugh like a maniac when I watch that show. corey just cracks me up. and so does Eric. I hope kelsey marries Eric one day cause that guy makes any pointless shit funny. so after that we went to mcdonalds. jessica didn't eat lunch so she ate a meal and I ordered a chicken wrap. it was good. wraps are good. OOKAY so then we go to her house and we go down to her bedroom and she starts clearing stuff off her dresser. so im like "let me get in on this." cause I've wanted to go through her crap and clean out her oom for SO LONG. but I was totally being a fridgid bitch and a control freak and I went kinda looney. I felt bad when I came home. But she kept flinging dust bunnies at me and that wasn't funn. But no joke I NEED to learn to not be bossy. but I had funn with her. She's one heck of a good time.
♥

I got home and ate. then this lady called wondering if I could babysit on thursday from 8am to 5pm. WHAT?!??!! that's soo long. but I didn't wanna say no because this mom pays really grandly. plus I already have to watch my sister. so if I get money coming in from two spots then that's really good. but im really getting sick of watching kids all the time. I love kids but I'm gonna go crazy. and I have a softball game after that at like 6. I'm pitching and haven't been to practice in a while. that's basically the stress in my life right now. which really isn't much. so I don't know why I'm complaining. okay i'm done.

so tomorrow at 4ish. I guess were gonna go see stick it. then I heard were going to elm creek/rice lake?? I don't remember. I have no clue whats going on. lauren called but it was kinda late [it wasn't THAT late, but my dad was annoyed] so I didn't really get the plan. if anyone wants to clear it up for me, that'd be great. the weather hasn't been "that so great" lately, so I wonder if we'll be able to go at all tomorrow.

its hott in my house and I need to watch my backyard because my brother's friend heard that some punks were gonna try to teepee us tonite. I doubt. were pretty likeable so I don't see why they would.
BRING IT ON BITCH! I'M READY FOR YA!

I'm going to bed, I'm pooped and hott. Another day of waking up at 7:45. sweet. oh but going to good will with gretchen will be SA-WEET! I'm gonna buy 23 tshirts. And then wash them. I can buy used. I'm not ashamed. =D
♥

Does anyone know who sings the song "Eye of the Tiger"?? It's bugging the crap outta me!

2006-06-19T04:11:38Z

okay. i've been busy. I don't write in this everyday. not even close. not a huge priority of mine. but I'll tell you what i've been up to for the past week or so. i'm pathetic for the fact that i'll actually review my week in my livejournal. who does bull like that? whatever. so friday [day of claire's party] sleep in until 8:30. I was pissed. I wanted to sleep in until at least 10. GAAAAY. basically just mess around with tommy and gretchen all day. it was funn. wish it woulda been sunny though. eh. not a big deal. then at the party.....it was a freakin' good time if I've ever had one. EVERYONE came. some people were wanted there more than others but I'm not gonna name names. I still had funn. yeah austin broke up with me. actually I would say tommy broke up with me. because he's the one who actually told me, you'd think he wouldn't have to because I wasn't dating him but he did anyways. all my friends were amazing. like......camille, kelsey, lauren, claire, leilani, and tommy. other people just acted like nothing happened. which I really appreciated cause I didn't want to make a bigg deal out of it. camille took me back to the fort thing and we just sat and she hugged me and listened to me cry. then she told me "erin just wanted to let you know, nobody even likes austin, we just hang out with him because you were dating him" wow. news to me. well I kinda knew that it was happening but I think I was in denial. doesn't matter. after like 10 min of just sitting and feeling sad I just thought, "screw this, its fricken summer and I'm at a party with awesome people. im not gonna cry over some piss stain that no one likes." so the rest of the party was great. had a REAL good time. oh and just one more thing. he got home and like an hour later he texted hannah [turpin] and asked her out. man, that kidd rebounds fast. she said no. whadda dickface he is.

I ♥ MY FRIENDS!

next day me, my madre and my sister left for North Dakota. perfect timing. I needed to leave. we stayed at a hotel for funn one night with my aunts. my godmamma took me shopping and bought me really cute crop pants and a green sweatshirt from aeropostale. I love them. sadly yesterday I was at gretchen's and kinda spilled red slushie on them. [fricken A!] but my mom got it out. cool beans. anyway my mom and sister went back home on sunday and I went to my grandma's farm for the rest of the week. I love the farm. I slept in everyday. I ate cookies like that monster from sesame street. she made me onion rings. and macaroni and cheese. she makes THEE BEST mac&cheese I've ever had. She musta made it like 3 times for me. I love my grandma. Me and my cousin kaitlin took down some rotten boards down in an old fort. it was funn. she's pretty chill. probably one of my favorite cousins. just kidding she's totally the most favorite. wouldn't leave her hangin' like that. my grandma let us use her ride on john deere lawn mower with the hitch trailer so we could haul stuff easier. she [kaitlin] totally took WAY MORE turns on it than I did. I think I just drove into one-to-many gopher holes. I'm a horrible driver. Don't ever get in a moving object with me. I'll probably kill you unintentionally. whatever. me and my boy cousins put up a homemade bridge on the river my grandma lives by. I love the bridge. found out I can pound a nail into a board in 10 seconds or otherwise 18 hits. YES! I rock. I worked hard on that record, so you can try to break it bitch, but your not gonna. Give it a shot......you'll fail! I also beat my grandma for the first EVER in a game of 500 Rummy. We've been playing for like 2 years now and I've never beaten her. You'd think just cause she's my grandma she'd be sweet and just let me win and give up. Oh hell no. That's not how she rolls. she's oh-so-competitive. felt good to kick her hiney in cards. My aunt mary was alotta funn. she's also my godmamma so she spoils me. I love her though. she's amazing. I wish she lived closer. Not in colorado. I wanna go visit her this summer but I'm pretty sure it won't happen. just a thought. I love going to North DAkota. But my friends are just soo intoxicating that I missed them too much. I got a UND football shirt. And it was only $5! So I don't even feel bad about buying it. its kick-ACE!

I need to see jessica and claire. I haven't seen them in soo long. I've seen lauren:], GRetchen:], kelsey:], nick and ethan:]. thats not enough. I need to see THEM ALL. Come and visit erin. because I bet if she hasn't seen you, then see probably has missed you.
♥

Just found out that now on tues., wend., and thurs. mornings I'll be babysitting my little sister while my mom is teaching summer school.

1. I am happy that they will be paying me [my parents]. I like money.$$$

2. Kinda cuts in on how many sleepovers I can have because I babysit from about 7:30 to about 12:30. But we all make sacrafices.

3. I'm not thrilled at all that I HAVE TO wake up at 7:30. Down right annoyed.

4. I am happy that I'll still have afternoons and evenings to hang with my friends. So it won't be an all-day thing. Besides nobody ever really hangs out til after lunch anyway. So I'm good there.

I've run outta things to inform you of. I love my family. I REALLY LOVE my friends. and life is good. And I want everyone to know...

"I'm not bitter:]"

Lazy nights of summer.

2006-06-09T05:24:05Z

Oh my riddens. School is over for 3 months. It doesn't seem like summer. I feel guilty cause its almost midnight and I'm up on the computer writing about my fabulous day. I keep thinking u need to go to bed so you aren't crabby tomorrow. But the thing is that I can sleep till noon if I want too. And I won't even be crabby.

Allright so here's my day, I"ll tell you quick about Wednesday. Pretty much the only significant thing that happened was I went in early with Austin to finish our tech ed project. We fricken owned. Like 38 seconds or something. I can't remember, but it was best in class. We got pop. TWas a good day. And my Science final was great. Considering I did absolutely no studying whatsoever, I was happy it was relativily simple. Yeah I used my notes and crap but who the hell cares?? SO Wed. was gnarley.

BUT in noooo way can it compare to Thurs. the last day of school.No chance. GAME OVER. Easily one of my favorite days of my life.My finals were easy. For the most part. But 4th hour, the last 10 minutes were BRUTAL. Mr. Zastro took his sweet ass time dismissing rooms. It was killing me. But anyway we all get outside and we start walking to D's Grille.[Formally known to me as the 50's grille. whoops.] But we stop at this gas station cause A LOT of people had to piss like crazy. I wasn't mad though, because fricken OJH locked all the god damn bathrooms. Who does that??? Well only four people could go in the store at a time. So most of us just stood by the window and made funny faces. So we're all watching people come in and out of the bathrooms. And then Jessica, Kelsey and Claire all come out of the ONE bathroom together. I swear I never saw a jaw hit the floor until today when Jeremy's actually did. Oh my GAWD, it was funny. So we all go to the restuarant, AND THE WAITRESS WAS TOTALLY COOL. I'm glad they weren't crabby like last year. We had sooo many people. I'm really glad a lot of people made it. It was a blast. We ordered a lot of food.And I had the best malt of my life. {As Ethan would say "it was orgasmic"] but I don't say slander like that. It was cookie dough. yummy. I took so many good pictures. [go to my myspace and look at them in my heros section.]

Allright so here's the story that gave me the biggest belly laugh of all time!! Everyone's heard it, but I'll keep it brief. We went into the Osseo Arena parking lot to et out onto 81, but it was locked up. So we decide we'll try scaling the gate so we can climb over. Jessica goes first. She gets to the top of the fence , so one leg is on each side of the fence. Her ass is just up in the air like you wouldn't believe. She starts to freak "AHH I'm gonna fall." By this time Gretchen's pulled out the camera and taken the most embarassing shot possible. Then outta no where, who comes driving up....but Mr. Ringold!

"Wow, Carnahan that's a great look for you. You look like a cat stuck up in a tree."

And now the rest of us ae just dying from lack of air. Cause we're laughing our asses off. Swear ta Gawd, nearly pissed myself 4 times. So she finally gets down and we walk home. Ahhh. GOOD STUFF.

So I get homeand I'm totally wiped. We walked from downtown Osseo all the way home, bout two and a half miles in the direct sunlight. So I take a 20 minute cat nap,get up and get ready to go to david's for a water fight. Once I'm there, I don't wanna get wet. CAuse I know all the boys have tons and tons of water balloons ready to just pelt us with. SO I hang in the garage for a while. I stayed in there because jessica got a garbage bag full of freezing cold water dropped on her. She looked like a wet dog. So I go out eventually, get out there, get beamed with water balloons and pure hose water and have the greatest time of my life. So many people came to his house too. It was awesome. Claire had a white tank top on and we'll it became see-through.[a....duh.] But it was funny. What a great effin' day. I'm soo happy that today turned out the way it did. I love my friends. I love summer. I love my family. I love Maple Grove. CAn't wait til Claire's party tomorrow. There's a certain English book I know of that will be burned alive!! AHAHA.......it will be AWESOME! okay I'm done now. Til next time. Thanks for reading.

I'm wearing my glasses. Cause my contacts are all blurry.

2006-06-07T02:58:28Z

Yeah. Science final tomorrow. eh. Should be studying, but my mental state is on summer break. No joke. Tomorrow's the last full day of school for 8th grade. THank GAWD. I just can't save that enough. And another thing its not like we're even doing anything in my classes. Just preparing for these fricken tests. I have to go in early tomorrow for Tech Ed to finish our marble run. Meaning I need to pick out my clothes tonite. I have major ADD in the morning and I go through about 5 outfits before I finally pick one. I wish I could just wear boy t-shirts and sweats everyday, but I don't have enough tees to wear. Okay I'm done talking about pointless crap that doesn't matter.

Had a softball game tonite. WE lost 12-9. Hey, were getting better, only our 2nd game of the year. I was pitching tonite and I was pretty off. Two walks. gah. I forgot my glove at home so I had to borrow my coaches'. I think that's what threw me off. I don't know. Oh! I had about 3 errors tonite too. Jeeze. I need to go to a pitching clinic or something.

Went to MacDonalds after school with Tommy and Gretchen. We biked and we were nearly killed by oncoming traffic at least 2 times. Had a good laugh over it though. It made me happy to do it cause it reminded me that we'll be doing fun stuff like this all summer long. yeeeah.

Okay I'm being distracted by FRIENDS. The tv show. Joey just isn't doing it for me anymore. Just doesn't have the charm that FRIENDS has. Okay guess I'm gonna go do something else. kbye everyone.

ya. nothing witty to say.

2006-06-05T21:33:24Z

School was good today. Last Monday of the year. Jeeze. Next time I'm in school on a Monday, I'll be a freshman. Fricken sweet. So I'll just give you a quick lowdown on my day:

I still need some people to sign my yearbook. ARG. Like Camille and Tommy. I'm pretty tight with both of them. I'm sooo out of things to write to people. Like today Tyler Segraves told me to sign his yearbook. I'm not particularily crazy about that kidd, So I wrote...."Tyler, You're a fag. Have a great summer." Like good gawd what a horrible thing to say to someone. I wasn't even in like a crappy mood or anything. But I'm not going to lead people on by telling them that so-and-so class was awesome with them. And that we should totally "chill" this summer. eh. So if I said something offensive to you. My apologies, honestly. I've just signed way too many yearbooks.

SO guess what?? Everyone knows this and all, but I can totally go to Claire's party on Friday. AHH. Thank GAWD! Claire's party's are the SHIZnite. Best. EVER. DOne. No question. I love hanging out with my friends. To thee extreme. Every single one. I know I'm gonna sound like a HUGE prude, but it's soo sweet that the party is til 11!! Holy crap. Cool, when we were out till 11:30 last FRiday, me and Gretch felt like total badasses. Ugh. I love Claire. very much.

I need to babysit tonite. Not for my sister or anyhting. For an actual family besides my own. Meaning I'll totally get paid. Cash$. I still owe my brother $20 for sorta buying my mp3 player. It's not an Ipod or anything. I don't like Ipods. Everyone has them. I would rather have my very own cheapo mp3 player that holds 150 songs. Now I know that I'm totally lying. But whatever point is I'm getting paid and thats totally rad. Austin invited me to his baseball game tonite. I wanna go. But I can't cancel. Very unprofessional.

I have to go get ready, but thanks for reading my toally, extremely pointless livejournal. Probably won't write anymore today. So what. Get off my back. Just joshin' ya. Later dudes.

So I'm s'posed to tell you how I feel, eh?

2006-06-05T02:09:35Z

mmkay. So I broke down and got a live journal. always thought they were kinda stupid. but there cool to some extent. I'm guessing that my entries won't be super long. just cause I suck at typing and I'm really slow. plus I always hit the wrong fricken key cause they're too close together. so just so you don't waste a good part of your day reading this I'm letting you know RIGHT NOW that most of what I say will be the most pointless crap you'll ever see. Not saying that I'm just a boring person by nature, but nothing "crazy awesome" happens to me. I told that to gretchen, [cause she told me to get a livejournal] that I would have nothing to talk about. So she suggested that while were shopping that she'll slip some jewelry or socks into my pocket while I'm not looking. Then I'll walk out of the store and all the alarms will go crazy. Then I'll get arrested and taken "downtown". That would be gnarley and/or crappy. But whatever, it was an amusing thought.

So we went to go see the Break UP today. ah. it wasn't horrible, but jeeze don't go rushing to see it. in my opinion for the last year or so movies are just not as good as they used to be. So much crap is turned out just to make a quick profit. I think you should put out less movies and take more time to make of higher quality. Whatever it my choice to go see the movies I do. I don't even have to so I have no reason to complain about it.

AHAHA the new starbucks commercial just came on.

"WHO DA MAN?"

"YOU DA MAN!"

yeah its lauren's birthday today. That's why we went to the movie. I had a good time with everyone. I enjoy spending time with a big group. But its a lot to handle sometimes. So small groups are cool too. There was a lot of people at the theatre. I didn't think we would find an aisle to fit all 10? 12 maybe people we had. I didn't know we were going to the mall afterward. Guess it was my fault for not asuming it, cause we usually do. It worked out though. It was a funn afternoon. I think Lauren liked my birthday present. It was the curious george soundtrack. all the songs are by jack johnson. he's soo mellow. reminds me a lot of jimmy buffet. [country singer] I hope she'll burn me a copy. But if she doesn't thats cool too. I hope she had a good day. A good birthday.

I can't wait for school to be done with. I'm soo sick of science. I really don't feel like doing a 200 question packet. I'm kinda blowing off my finals. Not smart. But honestly I really dont give a rat's ass anymore. Far as I'm concerned summer started for me bout two weeks ago. arg. It should pan out okay though.

Kay I'm gonna go do something productive. Not online. Maybe I'll talk to a member of my family. Probably my brother. He's pretty cool. Thanks for reading my first entry. Hopefully more to come.